March 20th

its been a couple of days since ive been on here. A lot has happened. I am proud to say that I am feeling a lot better. I still cough every now and then but its not that bad. I am down 26 pounds, i think its great but don't know if its good enough for the weigh in. I want this weigh in so bad and sometimes I think I have it in the bag and other times I'm thinking i'm crazy and will look like a fool compared to others. But then I realize I have to keep my head held high no matter what. On Saturday when they announce the winner i will be proud of who ever it is and be proud of myself for coming so far. The changes I've made in my life are huge, and I don't want to go down that path. The stuff I have given up are amazing. And I know that I did my best. Since the beginning of January there has only been a few days where I have not worked out. it does help going to fuel and seeing some friendly faces.

After this week i am not going to push it so hard. I will still do treadmill, work out and go to the spa. but i probably wont take the cardio cuts. I love it but don't want to kill myself taking it.